executive dysfunction is telling yourself for two and a half hours that you need to shower bc you smell like your workplace and you absolutely Cannot do Anything Else until you shower, doing Any Other Thing before showering is illegal!!! but you still haven’t for some reason??? you’ve just been sitting on your bed in a towel scrolling tumblr for 2+ hours thinking “I need to shower right now immediately” and growing increasingly frustrated that you are still not clean and you haven’t eaten or done your laundry either
esme and carlisle be like bellward your child is growing at an expenttial rate, she will be a fool adult before you no it, a grown up immortal person in no time and ed belwad was like Huh? we going too look into each others eyes and fuck in the meadow!!!! we ave forever! @rosalie can u babysit, everyones like yeah u have forever now so maybe spend time wit ya bay while its still an actual small kid? too hornu see yous later. wtf
my hot take as someone who has experienced the lowest of lows in terms of severe depression and anxiety and executive dysfunction: the whole “not everyone is neurotypical karen” mindset is legitimately damaging and destructive and ultimately will make you feel worse and more isolated
eating well and exercising and etc absolutely helps with mental illness. obviously it’s irritating to hear that when those things feel like impossible tasks, i get that, and i’ve been there. but forcing yourself to eat better, to walk more, to get up out of bed and shower even when you don’t want to, those things help. they clear your head. they make you feel better. they absolutely do. getting there is hard, but once you do it, it does help
rejecting any kind of help, even the most benign suggestion, from someone who is trying their best to think positively for you and shoulder the emotional burden with you, is going to make you feel worse. it’s going to make you feel that much more cut off and lonely and frustrated. i have isolated myself and ruined friendships with people because i chose to close myself off from people who were just trying to help and i convinced myself that they didn’t understand me and no one would ever understand me. what did that get me in the end? genuinely nothing. it made me feel even more alone.
in 2018 i encourage people who suffer like i have to see where people are coming from with cheesy self-care advice. they’re coming from the heart. and sometimes, doing a face mask or taking a hot bath or eating a nutritious meal or getting up to watch the sunrise or even just one yoga class can make you feel that much closer to the person you want to be. a lot of recovery from mental illness is “fake it till you make it” type shit. so don’t reject even the corniest advice because you are convinced it won’t help you. sometimes it really does. and you shouldn’t keep denying yourself even the smallest of victories because you feel like it’s easier to wallow in how bad you feel. it is so difficult to do good things for yourself and your body, but it is so rewarding
if Bella doesn’t remember much from her human life she probably won’t remember the severity of the trauma she went through so catch her walking into the living room like “hey Jasper remember that time you almost murdered me on my own fucking birthday? lol good shit….why r u guys staring at me like that”
“lol retweet to that time James broke my leg and you were all crying about it” “Bella that was a very difficult time for all of us” “way to make it about YOU I was the one he was trying to fucking murder lighten up guys”
“hey baby remember that time you left me?” “unfortunately yes” “cause I don’t lmao payback my sweet bitch”
